Soul Travelogue

SILENT BLUES

I



Death is the term of life
reminding myself daily
a kind of consolation
on awaiting that
finally, a moment
of concern

II

My soul won’t leave
despite my prayer
don’t want to be alive
shouts despair
echoes of nothingness
darkness and cold
oceans of indifference

I’m alone,
and ageing
tears form new seas
lone islands of pain
no-one heard
pain won’t count
goes unnoticed
but for
sea-stars

III

The Lord of the sea
recalling it now
the greatest among my peers
my feats inspired legends and poems
songs wooing the sirens
I was admired
my anger made
the sea rage
respected

Men put a price on me
I laughed it all away
being the quickest,

Danced with my lovers
loving at dawn
there were children
by day in the sea,
at night crossing heaven
So free…
they thought me a god
I too made that mistake
in command of the oceans,
the Lord of life
over myself, over all…
so young, I remember it
silent blues…

IV

Waters redden
silence aloud with cries
fear entering the soul
taking flight down
to the very bottom
search for
a place to be
and they follow:
blood,
screams…
blood,
screams…
I cursed men,

wept over my sisters
temptation seizes me
fill your lungs
became coral forever
only I think it
haven’t the guts
death I long for
the death that I fear much

V

Judgment day!
Judgment day!
the great day
they cry out
silly scared fish
looking to hide
has my day come?
struggling to the
surface to see
with my own eyes
that last time
what is it but
blaspheming rage
complicit waters
all in a tempest
and afar off,
some small boat
caught up in it
nature in uproar
I’m so curious
approaching
enough to see
not knowing how
I swallowed him
the old man
and the sky is
calm as the sea.

VI

From within
the poor man
spoke no word
is he resigned
to his fate?

I’ don’t understand
silence, creating
like a force
promise of endings
miracle to be born
he was quietness itself
I lost hope of
understanding all,
when it spoke to me
like a brother
calling to the sea
beheld the Spirit
who spoke
without a word

VII

Three days and
three nights
passed upon
the silence
I open my mouth
his body left
silence behind
without abandoning
me…

VIII

After years
the silence
spoke to me
like it was
yesterday
revealing that
hidden secret
unforgettable
it gives me
strength, to
go on living
in gratitude
all of life
that remains

this single
life is already
coming to an
end
only just
recently I
begin to
see…
silent blues.

END